Relationships

Every woman is looking for their prince charming.  Since childhood we envied Snow White, Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty.  But as we grow older we realize there’s no such thing as Prince Charming.  Some of you might not agree in my way of thinking, but correct me if I’m wrong.  All the fairytale character that I mention didn’t really get their happily ever after that easily. There’s the wicked witch in their way or the evil step sisters and step mother all the time.  But since we are in-love with the meaning and worth of being in-love, we dreamed of our personal happily ever after.  I’ve been in-love once and got 2 beautiful kids out of the 5yrs. relationship.  Now, after 2 years of being a single mother, I ask myself, where is my righteous price charming and my happily ever after?  I’ve been there but failed over and over again, so why would I let myself fail for the nth times? At this moment in my life I can say that I am satisfied with what I’ve achieve except for the fact that I’m a loser in terms of having a relationship with the man I love.  For the simple reason that I let him treat me like I’m just a girl he can get but can’t be proud of.  Yes, I have a month long relationship with a man who can’t present me even to his friends and family. And I’m such an idiot allowing that to happen.

 Maybe that’s why they call it stupid love? Because in some part people let themselves be stupid enough to be treated unfairly, like what I did.  If you think the worst part in this relationship is over, the answer is NO.  I caught him twice being a womanizer, the first one is with my own eyes and the second is through his family.  But being the very stupid one I let that pass me, again.  So the reality I’m facing now is the question, is he worth the sacrifices and hurt that I let myself get into.  I’m starting get a phobia from getting into a serious relationship because it always comes to my mind the past relationship I’ve been through.  Scared that I might end up a loser, be hurt and be left out again.